It Starts With Me
I’ve cried this week. I’m saddened by what I am seeing on the news. And even more saddened that what I’m seeing feels like a mountain-sized problem that we will never see an end to.
How did we get here as a culture?
How did we as a human race let the color of our skin cause such a divide?
How could our hearts have such vast hatred that would result in riots, pain, and murder?
I’m grieved. As a white girl, I feel guilty. I want the hatred, the divide, the anger to stop.
While at the doctor’s office today to get a x-ray for what I thought was a broken elbow (another story….. another time), the news was reporting, again, a story of hatred over skin color. My heart sank, I pushed back more tears. The black smiling man checking me in was hard at work, and I’m certain he didn’t hear the new story. But, I did.
After getting good news at the doctor, I went up to pay my not-so-good-news bill, and the black smiling man was courteous and helped me. I couldn’t shake the overwhelming thoughts and emotions of the earlier news story, or the tragic events that have happened over the week. What could I say, what could I do?
“I’m sorry for all the craziness that is happening in the world right now ” I stumbled over my words to the man behind the counter. I, as a white woman, I’m really sorry.”
The precious man replied, “It’s okay.”
“No, it’s not. And, I’m sorry. We must all change or this will never stop.” He smiled and nodded in agreement.
The CNA working behind him who also had beautiful black skin unexpectedly stopped working and turned to me, exclaiming, “Can I buy you dinner? Seriously, can I buy you dinner? Thank you. Thank you.”
Racism is real. It happens. It’s overwhelming. It’s not the way we as a people should live. So, if we want change, we all have to change. And, whether it’s a word of empathy, an extension of grace, an act of kindness, we all can, must, and should do something. Because change starts with me (and YOU).
“Be Kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you.” Ephesians 4:32